Wednesday, January 11, 2017

I hate my uterus

1/11/2017

For months now, I have had immense stomach pain with round the clock nausea and vomiting. I have it the week before, during, and after my period with a one week break in between. I have changed all my eating habits and have been taking three different medications for nausea and vomiting. Biopsies from my endoscopy and colonoscopy show nothing. Absolutely nothing.

Men may want to stop reading now, or keep reading and welcome to the life of someone with a uterus. My period arrives, I knew it was coming for 10 days due to vomiting, ovarian pain, bloating, and more. I prepare my day for work with a purse full of 8 tampons (one per hour at work), pads, and pantyliners.  By noon, I have bled through everything and ruined yet another set of clothes. I have four hours left at work and need to be able to pay for my insurance and hospital and doctors bills that I can not go home and stay home every week of my period. So, I go to the store and buy another slew of feminine hygiene products, and continue to take all my stomach medication and various OTC pain relievers for any hint of relief, all while hoping no one notices the pool of blood and blood clots I am sitting in until the day ends. Each morning, I have to change the sheets on my bed due to excessive bleeding and try not to pass out from dizziness. I am in a constant state of wanting to cry and cursing my reproductive system that I do not need at all. It just makes my life hell.

I will momentarily end this rant, but it will not truly end until my problem is fixed, not just held over by heating pads and medications.