It is 1:45am as I am writing this. Pain is a strange thing and even stranger when it is chronic. Usually it causes much fatigue and I usually sleep at least 8 hours a night because that's what my body requires. Pain is very tiring. But there are sometimes when I let myself get inso much pain that I can't sleep. This is one of those nights. Not to mention my medicine has one of 2 side effects. 1 being it makes me drowsy. 2 being it wires me. Tonight it chose number 2.
Now for my doctors visits updates. 2 weeks ago I had an MRI on my knee and a ct scan on my shoulder. Results: both came out completely normal. It's not surprising seeing that I have had 30+ scans and only 2 have showed anything then they do surgery and the surgeons are surprised everything when the scan misses all the damage and tumors they find during surgery. The MRI of my knee should have at least shown my previous surgery and the life long damage I will have in my cartilage. The ct scan should have shown my clavicle missing part of it and not attached at the acromion process. This tells me one of two things that either the radiologist is reading the scans so fast and saying its normal and the doctors just taking his word for it or quickly skimming the scans as well OR I am just an unbelievable human being with super powers that defy scientific testing machines. If it's number one shame on you doctors and give me back my money and if it's number two then you should study me more.
I mailed the shoulder ct scan to my surgeon in NC. All he needs it for is to measure my clavicle to figure out exactly which surgery he wants to do. I guess it will be a surprise when I wake up from it.
I saw my asshole knee surgeon (yes he deserves that name) 2 Fridays ago. I was almost positive that he was going to fire me as a patient since they didn't collect my copay or the disc that they told me to bring on the MRI. He walked in and asked how my knee was. I said the same. Then he said the MRI was negative. I said I already know. He then asked what I thought about it. I said I think it's wrong because normal knees don't act like this. Then SURPRISE!!!! He asked if I wanted the surgery. I said yes. He then quickly explained that he would scope the knee and told me all the risks and asked if I had any questions. I was so shocked that I didn't ask any questions.(but seriously what is there to ask when I've had this surgery 3 times before and they refuse to do something different to actually fix the problem). The nurse called last week and I got the surgery date of December 4th which I had to decline due to the shoulder surgery December 17. I can't use crutches and have my shoulder immobilized at the same time and my body cant handle anesthesia back to back 2 weeks apart. It can barely handle 4 -6 months a part. But no worries. They said I can call and reschedule once my shoulder is healed so I will most likely he having it in March (maybe with my tubeligation...mom, we should talk about that call me once you read this)
All and all I will finally get the 2 surgeries I've been trying to get for the past year. In the mean time I'm starting to get new problems but can't go see a doctor about it until I get all my medical clearance for this upcoming surgery. Until then I shall suffer in silence.
